The Unfinished

I wake up multiple times during the night. Not sure if it is from excitement or what but I finally wake up at 7:30 from a dream I will not forget. I am healing someone. I can still remember details about the person. I feel extremely peaceful and rested even though I only got a few hours of sleep. Again this is more than likely due to the amazing experience, but also in part because Abel and I talked a lot after the conference. Being in God's presence ruined me. I never want to be out of it again and I am so sad that I let so much time pass by without Him. I am stressed with life, overwhelmed by everything, and feel as if there is no time for Him with everything else going on. Abel is quick to comfort and tells me that part of this is his fault. He should be helping me more and making sure I have daily time for God and school work. He is extremely supportive for the future plans I have and is just so in tune with me its scary. Good scary. So the morning is good. After breakfast we head to Sterling State Park hoping to see some Bald Eagles. It is huge though and have no idea where to start. When we see Lake Eerie beach access we are curious and excited so we head there first. Wow! It is the most beautiful site. We walk along enjoying the amazing views trying to ignore the occasional dead fish. We decide to go down some trails, our mission - ealges. We go down a trail that has a view point in the middle. We start off feeling great. The weather is beautiful and the views are awesome. We walk. We talk. We walk. We talk. We walk. How far is this view point? We keep on. The view stays the same except for the occasional river view. More walking. More talking. More walking. A little less talking. The sad thing? Its been 30 minutes and we aren't even half way there (The view point is our half way point). The view point at last. And are their eagles? NO. Just more river. It is extremely hot by now after all this walking and I am exhausted...what can I say I am out of shape and in jeans. We decide to turn back, its closer than continuing. Sad, I know. We head to the hotel, freshen up, drive around the city, and go shopping. I need summer clothes. Ms. Bright idea thought it would be a lot colder and decided to only take long sleaves. hehe. We head to the church that evening and are even more floored than the night before. More testimonies. More prayer. More worship. More God it seems. We are praying for the holy spirit to invade us and are in deep prayer when suddenly my hands start to tingle, start to burn a little, but not in a bad way. Then he calls everyone up who feel something in their hands. He tells us it is the Spirit. We come up there for prayer and are released to pray for those around us. It is amazing how God uses us and speaks through us. This may sound dumb but I never thought He could use me this way. After all I have done? But here He is. We leave around midnight again reluctantly. But this time there is no sadness or stress as the night before. Only complete happiness and peace. I am in His will finally. I know what He wants of me. Maybe not the details, but the direction. Day 2.