Goodbyes

1 week left. That's all I get.
Have you ever been in a situation where you had to make a decision, and you didn't want to choose because you wanted both things? I want both so bad.
But the decision had to be made, and it will be so hard to leave the other thing behind. My family. My parents. My best friends. My life support. My everything. And maybe that's why it came to this. Maybe.
I am so excited for the move. To have our own place, though that's another topic altogether as we still don't have a move in date. To be where we know God is calling us. To be a part of something that is not only life-chaning, but world changing. To know God on a whole new level and team up with Him on things I never thought possible. This whole thing is such a dream come true for me. It is what my soul longs for. It is what my heart beats for. So why is it so hard to leave where I am and embark on this new adventure? Why do my eyes fill with tears at the thought of leaving them behind? I think one of the reasons it is so hard is because I know this will cause them heartbreak too.
As I pack up and see the shelves and closets become a little more bare, I feel like my life here is being erased. It's the end of something beautiful, and the start of something I have only dreamed of.
So Holy Spirit, I need your comfort more than ever.